On the phone, at a gas station, in our dreams
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Beth Alvarado is a writer and teacher from Tucson, Arizona, who now lives in Oregon. Her newest book of short stories, Jillian in the Borderlands: A Cycle of Rather Dark Tales, is forthcoming in the fall.
I’d thought dating would make me feel less grief, but it was the opposite. I decided to delete my Match.com account and learn to masturbate. I had enough sadness in my own life.
Is there something wrong with me that I don’t seem as bereft as some widows, that I’m handling it so well? That’s what everyone says: “You are handling it so well.” I know he is dead. I just can’t believe we will be separated forever. Whoever wrote, “Till death do us part,” didn’t know what he was talking about.