Never mind the mistakes Mother and Father made; the first of them may have been the decision to make you, to bring out of Eternity’s Waiting Room that thing you’ve been calling your soul, plucked like some arcade prize in the Big Claw Game of their love. O, how they dressed you in miniature clothes, fed you human food, brushed your hair, mussed it up, held you in their hands like a bright souvenir. And during those moments of raw anger — when they channeled their lousy childhoods through you and railed against all the things they’d never had — they cursed you with their wish for better lives, and you could answer their inconsolable wanting only with your tears, until at last they spoke with tenderness, or something like it, and maybe didn’t completely regret the few lustful thrusts that launched you into your body. Or so you thought until the teenage years, when you examined every incomprehensible gift under the sterile spotlight of what you felt you deserved and discovered not only did they not know you, but you could never know them, and so you left as soon as possible, for a bus station, a campus, minimum wage, the first available spouse, and it’s only now, after some time spent before the blank stares of your own little ungratefuls, that you remember your mother and father and how no one else ever stood on the front porch and called your name into the dark.
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